I'm hanging my head in shame....

I am not very happy with myself at the moment.

I gained about 2 pounds.

This wouldn't actually be that big of a deal if I hadn't acted like a buffoon this weekend.

I did super with the birthday dinners. I had healthy food but did have desert. I planned ahead and ended my days right on track.

Then the weekend came.

Apparently I lost my mind.

We went to the movies Friday night. I had popcorn. I planned for this, and was ok.

We came home and mom made cookies. Like 5 different kinds.

I did not practice discretion.

Not even moderation.

Idiot!

I babysat Saturday night.

My boss sent me home with the leftover dessert.

Guess what I enjoyed several times on Sunday?

Uggh! What is that!?!?

I did not go to Zumba tonight. I had a lot to do at home.

I did do my regular workout plus an extra on the Wii.

I am headed back to my room to do Pilates.

I am completely on track with my points.

I have resolved to get back on track this week and I am doing it so far.

Aside from messing with my body, the way I acted this weekend dealt a blow to my confidence.

I had bought a bunch of tank tops to wear to work so that I am cooler and don't have a farmer's tan.

I wore some today.

I may as well have been naked.

I felt like everyone was looking at me horrified.

I felt like I had overestimated my progress and didn't look as good as I once thought I would.

I felt like I was embarrassing my boss by being seen in her yard showing so much of my disgusting body.

When I saw my reflection in the mirror all I could focus on was the fact that the shirt was fitted to my stomach rolls.

I'm really having a down time. I hope I stop feeling discouraged soon.

Blah.